In Three Words...

I can sum up everything I've learned about life.
It goes on.
~Robert Frost

Sep 17

zackisontumblr:

i have 3 moods:

  • skips every song on my ipod
  • lets the music play without interruption
  • plays the same song on repeat for days

(via kungfupandahiya)


Sep 11

Ever have a day…

… where you feel like everything you do is wrong? It isn’t, necessarily, but it FEELS wrong?

Like you share a tidbit and feel like someone is mad at you for sharing? Or like everything you care about no one else cares about? I dunno, I think it might just be me. I’ve been feeling like a lot of people are angry with me for some reason, and I don’t know why. Part of me thinks it’s because they know I’m eventually going to leave my career, so they assume I’m not as invested. Which is stupid, but people tend to be stupid. Then part of me thinks that I’m making it all up because I’m on the defensive about so many things. I feel like I’m in a good place right now and I’ve never really had that without there being a conflict about it.

I dunno. I’m just confused, because I want nothing more than to feel successful at what I do and lately I’ve been feeling like all I do is piss people off. And yet I’m still feeling like I’m not doing enough.

Then again maybe all these people really do find me annoying, I dunno. I try to be nice and friendly, maybe my version of friendly doesn’t jive with other people’s. Who knows.

I need a vacation.


Sep 8

Why I Loved The Raven Cycle

At first you kind of hate the characters. They’re flawed, angry, and human. Blue tries too hard to be weird, Gansy tries too hard to be an ass… and yet from that first meeting on the dead road you just KNOW they have so much more of a story to tell. Then you find the magic, and you realize why Blue fights to stand out. Everything clicks together in this beautiful way, and soon you’re standing in that forest with Blue and Gansey and Adam and Ronan. When that happens you can feel it… feel the magic swelling, and the thread tightening.

Then it fades… and suddenly you see what Gansey must have seen on the dead road. 


Jun 25

May or may not have bailed on a birthday party simply because I didn’t want to actually get dressed up and leave the house. 

A+ social creature I am. 


Jun 17

I am

An expert liar. BWAHAHAHAHHAHA.

The things I do to preserve my sanity.


Apr 29

So I’m struggling with a student. Two, actually.

Both are smart kids, but one is actively defiant because reasons and one just doesn’t want to work. Which I guess I should be used to after last year.

And the thing that’s really getting to me is the way I’m handling it. I’m not staying objective or above it, I’m engaging and getting too involved. I feel like I’m letting the one kid win and the other kid down. All while trying to teach the other 95. 

It’s just… I feel sick. Because I know I handle it badly, and as much as I get tomorrow to start over… I wish I felt like I was making a difference where it counted.

But I don’t. And I feel alone because it seems like just me. So maybe…

Maybe.


Apr 28
gaychristian:

BREAKING LANDMARK LAWSUIT: UNITED CHURCH OF CHRIST SUES FOR EQUAL MARRIAGE
The United Church of Christ is suing the US state of North Carolina, because its marriage ban, the notorious Amendment One, prevents UCC clergy from performing legal same gender marriages. They are the first denomination to sue for the freedom to marry. More here. 
www.gaychristian.tumblr.com

WHOO-HOO!!
Look look! North Carolina is doing something RIGHT!!!

gaychristian:

BREAKING LANDMARK LAWSUIT: UNITED CHURCH OF CHRIST SUES FOR EQUAL MARRIAGE

The United Church of Christ is suing the US state of North Carolina, because its marriage ban, the notorious Amendment One, prevents UCC clergy from performing legal same gender marriages. They are the first denomination to sue for the freedom to marry. More here

www.gaychristian.tumblr.com

WHOO-HOO!!

Look look! North Carolina is doing something RIGHT!!!

(via girlwithalessonplan)


Apr 25

Lea Michele - If You Say So

I keep having these awful moments where I somehow believe that Cory is still alive… he just left Glee, and is off somewhere being cool and watching Lea be amazing and everything is happy.

And then I remember. And it’s a knife through the heart. And this song is like someone twisting that knife.

And it hurts.

(via sweet-attentive-lover)


Mar 23

I am trapped because two balls of fluff have discovered the electric blanket and are refusing to move off my legs.

It’s ok, it’s not like I need to do shit…


Mar 21

Everything is either pissing me off or making me sad today. And it is DECIDEDLY not that time of the month. Like… the fuck!?

Figured out that I need to just… not speak to certain coworkers. Either because I don’t appreciate being condescended to, or because everything I say comes out wrong. So new policy: Jess no longer speaks unless it’s about her career. Personal things stay personal, because egomaniacal bitches cannot be stopped and it’s easier to avoid. 

I should not still be annoyed by this. I acknowledge that. But like… seriously? The worst thing is this isn’t even the worst thing she’s done, it’s just the most directly irritating. 

But then like… I keep seeing sad things. And I get sad. Or I see people being moronic. And I get angry.

And I think my dad doesn’t trust me because I suspected him of drinking last time I was home. And I stand by it. So I feel like a terrible daughter, but… I kind of have a responsibility to myself. 

Ugh. Fuck this. Time to go read. I had plans to be productive, but I feel like cleaning would only exacerbate my anger.


Feb 28

This was a hard week. Like… I’m not sure I’ve had a week this hard all year. Last year was hard for different reasons. Lots of student drama and bad behavior, miscommunication and technology issues, plus I had the migraine from hell on Monday and that threw me all out of whack.

I was so glad for today to end. And now I’m so tired I can’t sleep.

My life is one big oxymoron.


Feb 16

So the thing was fun. After was fun. So aside from my dad being a hyperactive pain in the ass who is sneaky as fuck (and is gonna drag out fixing my car as long as possible), this visit has been ok.

Except my head is stuffy. And I miss my cats. And I really wanna go home.


Feb 13
horatioreginald:

wellisnthatwizard:

wibbly-wobbly-holly-jolly:

amp0rna:

i-was-a-teenage-fangirl:

glowsticks-of-destiny:

janefoster:

waffleawful:

How did you get this number?
I watched you watching me from laboratory five
Lately I’ve been wondering what’s been going on
I had a dream
After one long season of waiting
They gave me a life that’s not so easy to liveHere we come to a turning of the season
Go on, save yourself
Take a long hard look at my face 
In the night time we are found

All my friends tell me I should move on.
You say it’s all over for you and me,
When’s the day you start again?
Oh no, not now,
Didn’t know what this would be.
Lately I’ve been losing sleep,
Last night I had a dream we were inseparably entwined.
You’ve been hurting a long time,
You can’t escape the feeling,
And I’ve been waiting for you.

Walking on broken glass
When you were here before
Where are we?
All our times have come
Is love so fragile?
Early this morning when you knocked upon my door
I still hear your voice
I’m so much better
Please allow me to introduce myself
This town is colder now.

I woke up from my sleep to the sound of that voice
(next two song were both instrumental)
We are young
I’m getting married in the morning
I feel like walking has become another chore
You took the Unbreakable Vow
That blonde, she’s a bomb, she’s an atom bomb
Never had much faith in love or miracles
This kitten got your tongue tied in knots, I see
(four more instrumentals)
Gimme your, gimme your, gimme your attention baby
The elevated train by my window doesn’t faze me anymore.

there’s a humming in the restless summer air
i’m lost in empty pillow talk again
wide awake, my mistake so predictable
well she lives in a fairy tale 
well you’re a long walk from my street 
crashed on the floor when i moved in
yeah i feel im bordered down
i never loved nobody fully 
we’re never done with killing time
give me love like her

We’re soaring, flying, there’s not a star in heaven that we can’t reach
Why can’t you see I’m just no good at these things?
I’ve been down, I’ve been beat
High rise, veins of the avenue
Every day you walk a stronger step
She said if you don’t let it out you’re gonna let it eat you away
Kiss me too fiercely, hold me too tight
Are you worth your weight in gold?
Be careful what you wish for in the dark
You’re a princess, I’m a servant

Be careful making wishes in the dark, dark
I think I found hell
Somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me
Oh, well imagine, as I’m pacing the pews in a church corridor
She told me not to step on the cracks
This world is gonna burn, burn burn burn,
Lord almighty, I feel my temperature rising
I’m sitting in a room made up of only big white walls
Another day in this carnival of souls
The mirror’s image tells me it’s home time.

Grey skies and light fading
Have you got colour in your cheeks
Life’s too short to even care at all
Looking up from underneath
I can’t get my feet up off the edge
Hey, I can hear you talking
I wish I had a metal heart
I found shelter in this way
Days feel hard earned
Well maybe I’m a crook for stealing your heart away

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Remember all the things we wanted
Don’t cry to me
How can I pretend that I don’t see
I should know who I am by now
Searching on the wire for a wire
I can’t imagine all the people that you know
Mama, we all go to hell
If there’s a prize for rotten judgement
Been there, done that, messed around

horatioreginald:

wellisnthatwizard:

wibbly-wobbly-holly-jolly:

amp0rna:

i-was-a-teenage-fangirl:

glowsticks-of-destiny:

janefoster:

waffleawful:

How did you get this number?

I watched you watching me from laboratory five

Lately I’ve been wondering what’s been going on

I had a dream

After one long season of waiting

They gave me a life that’s not so easy to live

Here we come to a turning of the season

Go on, save yourself

Take a long hard look at my face 

In the night time we are found

All my friends tell me I should move on.

You say it’s all over for you and me,

When’s the day you start again?

Oh no, not now,

Didn’t know what this would be.

Lately I’ve been losing sleep,

Last night I had a dream we were inseparably entwined.

You’ve been hurting a long time,

You can’t escape the feeling,

And I’ve been waiting for you.

Walking on broken glass

When you were here before

Where are we?

All our times have come

Is love so fragile?

Early this morning when you knocked upon my door

I still hear your voice

I’m so much better

Please allow me to introduce myself

This town is colder now.

I woke up from my sleep to the sound of that voice

(next two song were both instrumental)

We are young

I’m getting married in the morning

I feel like walking has become another chore

You took the Unbreakable Vow

That blonde, she’s a bomb, she’s an atom bomb

Never had much faith in love or miracles

This kitten got your tongue tied in knots, I see

(four more instrumentals)

Gimme your, gimme your, gimme your attention baby

The elevated train by my window doesn’t faze me anymore.

there’s a humming in the restless summer air

i’m lost in empty pillow talk again

wide awake, my mistake so predictable

well she lives in a fairy tale 

well you’re a long walk from my street 

crashed on the floor when i moved in

yeah i feel im bordered down

i never loved nobody fully 

we’re never done with killing time

give me love like her

We’re soaring, flying, there’s not a star in heaven that we can’t reach

Why can’t you see I’m just no good at these things?

I’ve been down, I’ve been beat

High rise, veins of the avenue

Every day you walk a stronger step

She said if you don’t let it out you’re gonna let it eat you away

Kiss me too fiercely, hold me too tight

Are you worth your weight in gold?

Be careful what you wish for in the dark

You’re a princess, I’m a servant

Be careful making wishes in the dark, dark

I think I found hell

Somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me

Oh, well imagine, as I’m pacing the pews in a church corridor

She told me not to step on the cracks

This world is gonna burn, burn burn burn,

Lord almighty, I feel my temperature rising

I’m sitting in a room made up of only big white walls

Another day in this carnival of souls

The mirror’s image tells me it’s home time.

Grey skies and light fading

Have you got colour in your cheeks

Life’s too short to even care at all

Looking up from underneath

I can’t get my feet up off the edge

Hey, I can hear you talking

I wish I had a metal heart

I found shelter in this way

Days feel hard earned

Well maybe I’m a crook for stealing your heart away

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Remember all the things we wanted

Don’t cry to me

How can I pretend that I don’t see

I should know who I am by now

Searching on the wire for a wire

I can’t imagine all the people that you know

Mama, we all go to hell

If there’s a prize for rotten judgement

Been there, done that, messed around

(via joannaemccoy)


Feb 8

this is social anxiety summed up in two gifs

a bit.like I picked cleaning over a movie,because this.

Oh the things I have decided were more important than socializing. Personal fave: “It’s too cold.”

(via kungfupandahiya)


I found a dress for the thing.

It took a total of 10 hours because I’m picky and it’s hard to find a semi-formal dress that isn’t too low cut, too tight, too conservative, too glittery, or too geriatric.

But I did it. And the shoes are awesome. And the whole outfit looks awesome. Now to just survive until Saturday night.

Hannah, I soooo wish you were coming to this thing. But we are soooo hanging out after if possible. Hailey, you too.


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